anxiously awaiting

Today we will meet with the neonatologist that will be present at Madeline's birth and hopefully, get some feedback from him. Brian and I have loads of questions to ask and many tough decisions to make in the next few weeks. I am getting more and more anxious the closer it gets to delivery. I often think that it would be nice if I could just stay pregnant. I feel like Madeline is pretty happy in the womb and seems like she is better off inside of me than when she has to depend on her own little body after birth.

Brian and I continue to ask God to heal Madeline and give us time with her. We have talked at length about all the possibilities at her birth and all the "what if's". But we can only imagine. God is the only one with the answers and we are praying that He continues to bless us.

I am getting more and more uncomfortable with each passing week but I try not to complain since the alternative would to not still be pregnant. I am so thankful to get through each day with Madeline still moving around. I can't wait to see what she has gained since my last sonogram.

Thank you for praying for us. You will never know how much your prayers, calls, cards, and words have comforted us through all of this. We have really learned how gracious and good people are.

We will keep you posted and hopefully have a delivery date to share with you soon. Keep praying!!!!

Mandy